Some cool pink lips images:
living room
Image by maureen_sill
when my family moved to ohio, we were coming from kansas city missourri and i was in the fifth grade. i did not want to come to ohio because i had a best friend named greg in missourri who used to go with me into the woods and climb trees and dig holes and get dirty and i was convinced that no one in ohio would think those things were fun. dad said where we were going had the rock and roll hall of fame and a big lake, and i wasn’t impressed. missourri had greg, who had a pet turtle, parents who let him stay out as late as mine did, and every jim carey movie ever made on VHS. greg and me played street hockey in front of our houses after school every day
when i lived in missourri, i did the meanest thing i have ever done to anyone, in my memory
when i was in the fourth grade there was a girl on greg and mine’s street
her name was ashley smith
she had dark brown hair and big, pink lips and puffy, little girl cheeks and blushed all the time for no reason
i thought that she was the most annoying thing on earth
in fact i thought almost every girl i knew then was the most annoying thing on earth
they were always telling on me for doing things i wasn’t supposed to be doing
ashley, in particular
everyone knew she was adopted, because one time she screamed at her mother "you’re not my real mom, and you can’t make me!" when her mom asked her to do something in front of all of the neighborhood kids
i remember the look on her face after she realized she said that in front of everyone
and everyone stood there for ten seconds, wondering what it felt like to be adopted
in ten seconds everyone decided that it must be awful to have been adopted, and everyone kind of alienated her after that
i remember being indifferent about the fact that she was adopted, but once when she was getting on my nerves really bad when mike, greg, my brother, tyler and i were trying to play hockey by saying, "you’re NOT a boy, so why do you only play with boys!? do you WANT to be a boy??!?"
and i turned to her, more annoyed than pissed off, because i just wanted to play hockey and i had enough of her bullshit and said, "fuck you"
and everyone went, "ooooooh…"
and she said, i bet you just wish that you were a boy
and greg said, no, she doesn’t want to be a boy, she just wants to play hockey and my brother just stood there
and i said to her, i just wish you weren’t adopted so i never would have had to put up with you
that is the meanest thing i have ever said
the first night we moved to ohio
my brother broke his leg when we were practicing jumping down the stairs that lead into the room in this photograph, without using the railing of course
and my mom took him to the emergency room
and i missed greg cause if this had happened in missourri, we would have sat in my driveway on the warm pavement and played with his pet turtle and told me not to worry, that my brother was going to be okay
and ashley would have stood on the sidewalk, and said, hey, is that a turtle?
and greg would have said something like, "no, stupid, it’s a tree"
and i would have laughed and she would have felt bad
i thought about this recently
i wasn’t a mean kid
i was just mean to her because she drove me nuts
she added me on facebook a couple months ago
i sent her a message that said, i’m sorry for that thing i said that night during the big street hockey game that made you cry when we were in the fourth grade, i felt really bad and i’m really, really sorry and i hope that it didn’t hurt you too bad
i sent her a really long message about why i’m sorry for things like that and why i’m making it a priority in my life to never make people feel that way ever again
she said, i don’t remember that ever happening
i wrote back and said, i do, so i guess if i can’t apologize to you in the present, this is an apology to you in the past
she did not respond after that
i am glad she does not remember
ashley has blonde hair now, instead of brown and has tan skin instead of white
she lists her political views as conservative and her religion as christian
she goes to some college i’ve never heard of
she is still adopted
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